January was interesting. It started quite uneventful but picked up by the second week and ended, sadly, in a negative note.It is true—well, at least for me—that the month felt like it went on for years like what almost everyone is saying on the internet. Although, I do think that the month only felt more eventful and slow than it actually was since I started journaling almost every day, about even the tiniest detail.

The Start

Like I said, the first week was boring (and that’s saying something since I already have a boring life to start with) and uneventful. I welcomed the year sick. For the first 3 days, I was nursing a flu and a very bad cough that carried on through the next two weeks. Also, I really don’t remember much about my first week (I doubt I did anything being sick) since I only started journaling the second week.

The Middle

The second week was sort of… inspiring. I was like a walking ball of energy and had a once in a life time unlimited amount of motivation. Though I got rid of my fever, my cough got worse. For a few days I’d throw up whenever I'd lie down to go to sleep. I don’t know why it was like that but it was horrible along with having a hard time breathing from time to time. I really think I have my asthma back.

  • Our neighbor and close family friend called for help around 2 in the morning when she suddenly collapsed. My mom and I rushed to help her until her children was able to call the ambulance and bring her to the hospital. Thankfully, it was nothing serious.
  • I told my dad that I started a system into my journal similar to bullet journals and that I got a little frustrated and discouraged that I have nothing to write about since I don’t have everyday life and tasks. He answered, “That’s not you though. You’re internal. Write about your thoughts and philosophies instead.”
  • My sisters and I cleaned up our room spotless and mom was so proud and happy.
  • I made resolutions for the first time!
  • I had the serious thought of going back to school for a while after I had a talk with my dad wherein he planted an idea of me taking up a philosophy major. Coincidentally, the next day after my dad and I talked, I saw a post on Facebook from Portraits of America about a student studying Philosophy. Why philosophy? To learn how to think. Too many people go to college to get a job—they should go to get an education and learn.
  • Family friends visited us, coming home from London. At some point, they talked about cultural differences, most specifically the educational system when my dad mentioned that I was interested in studying abroad. But the highlight of this visit for me was when they asked me if I already graduated, I told them the truth that I dropped out of school and wasn’t ashamed of the fact at all and I was very proud of myself for it. (Not that dropping out is a good thing, stay in school kids!)
  • The family celebrated my uncle’s birthday with dinner and karaoke. Karaoke’s always fun though I don’t sing.

The third week was about settling into the year. It felt like the first two weeks still had the energy from all the Christmas and New Year celebrations so realizing that we’re in another year, planning for it, and finally not making the mistake of writing 2017 was all crammed up in the third week of the month.

  • I watched Seventeen (as I was getting into their fandom) on crack videos on Youtube and laughed so hard—the first time for the year!
  • I spent the whole day of January 19 sleeping and I seriously thought there was something terrible wrong about me… well, more so than I already was.
  • The day before, January 18, I sat beside my dad who was watching a movie as soon as I woke up, laid down with my head on his lap and cried, thinking about the future and despising myself how I could be a person without dreams.
  • I downloaded the Superstar BTS game in a desperate effort to lighten up my mood that was going downhill.
  • I spent one morning talking to the entire family over breakfast (and I mean coffee and lots of bread—the family’s breakfast) and watched NBA after. I also painted for a while. (Photo above) It was, hopefully the first of many to come, a really nice morning. Much needed.

The End

The remaining week and last days of the month were I daresay internal and very loaded. I had a good amount of time just to myself, which became rare since my sisters (my cousins really but I like calling them my sisters, it’s more appropriate) came to live with us, and I guess, set myself to retreat back to my shell again. I was too restless for the most part until the last two days of the January where I gave in to my mind and was a complete mess.

  • Out of nowhere, a lady knocked while me and my sister, Lucille, were at home alone and demanded that I give her 10 pesos so she can go home. I got scared and refused, also remembering my mom’s warning days before not to entertain strangers begging because of break-ins going in our neighborhood. Apparently, they use the excuse of begging to look around your house and then come back next time to steal something? So I refused the woman when she continued to ask me money and some clothes. After she left to knock next door instead and I calmed down myself, I felt really bad. Maybe I judged her too quick? I should’ve helped.
  • Dad borrowed philosophy books for me since I grew interest in Friedrich Nietzsche after I watched some videos on Youtube.
  • I wrote a letter for my aunt.
  • A ‘lowlight’ happened which I now call “Episode 1” but I’d rather not talk about it here. It’s the same demons, anyway.

Month Consumptions

The Harry Potter and Goblet of Fire book I borrowed from the library was barely holding on.

I consumed pretty good this month though I wasn’t able to watch any movies like I wanted to. I wasn’t particularly in the mood to watch movies. I preferred watching Korean variety shows for some reason and rewatch some of my favorites. I did read a lot, I’m so proud!

  • The K2 (2016)
    A former mercenary soldier seeks revenge for her his murdered fiance by working as a bodyguard to the hidden daughter of a presidential candidate. I didn't expect it to be as political as it was but it (still) was a very nice drama. I like the fight scenes mainly how Ji Changwook pulled it off so well. The acting of all the characters were really good, even the love interest which didn't really have much to go on, depth and development, was carried really well.
  • High Kick Season 3
    It's my first time watching something like High Kick from Korean television. It's sitcom but not really that sitcom by what I am mostly used to from Western TV. It has more flavor to it, more depth which I really like. I have yet to finish this one though. I'm still around the 60s out of 123 episodes!
  • Half-Moon Friends
    K-Pop boy group Winner's variety program where they set up a daycare center to take care and form friendship with 4 to 7 year old kids. I have a few episodes left to watch for this one too but aahh, it's been so cute and fun! The show really gave focus on the kids rather than just the idols. Winner really knows how to interact with the kids as well. They were so cute and it really showed that they care a lot for the kids.
  • The Gifted Episode 11-13
    The Gifted Season 1 ended this month! It was so good! *leaves it here çause I didn't commit to my episode recaps and I'm guilty lol*
  • Spirited Away (2001) - rewatch
    Lucille and I made our younger sisters and other cousin watch this. How this movie still amazes me and makes me feel things no matter how many times I've seen it, I'll never know. A masterpiece and my favorite!
  • Legend of Korra: Balance and Game of Thrones Season 7 - rewatch
    The go to for rewatches. Mainly because I miss Korra and her adventures and how I can't wait for the next and final season of Game of Thrones. Also, for the satisfying scene of dragons and my Stark children being the boss kids that they are.
  • Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
    I'll have separate posts of proper book reviews for this one and all the other books I'll be reading this year. So... yeah. I'll leave my thoughts there? Hehe.
  • Seventeen One Fine Day Season 1 & 2 + Produce 101 Season 2 rewatch
    I haven't finished season 2 but season 1 was really fun! I didn't expect it to be Castaway but it showed how fun and hardworking these boys are, it was good! The first time I watched Produce 101, it was more about the show and this rewatch, I focused more on Wanna One. Is it weird that I was super nervous for them at their final elimination even though I knew who'd be debuting? LOL

Fangirl Moments

I don't know why I exactly have this corner... but BTS won two Daesang (Grand Prize for Korean music awards) this month and I'm super proud of them. Also, I got into Seventeen this month. I don't particularly like dyed hair unless you're Min Yoongi or Kwon Jiyong but blond Mingyu in Boom boom with forehead might be the only exception.


And that was January for me! Oh boy, that was long. If you made it through this part, I love you!! How did your January go? I hope it went well!! And I'll leave you all with a quote that always struck a chord in me whenever I watch Legend of Korra.

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